...Honestly, I'm not sure. I don't know what it means to be a hero at all. I'm not sure I'd trust someone who claims to always be doing the right thing.
Helping people seems like a pretty good thing to spend your time doing either way.
Maybe hero's just the word they use to make themselves feel like they're doing the right thing. Just like they called Mika a villain, even though... she didn't mean to kill him.
That's sort of what I think. Whether you're doing the right thing or the wrong thing isn't something you can just establish once and have it done with. Every day you're making decisions about what to do...like whether to hate someone like Mika just because it's easier to accept it that way.
You just...have to decide for yourself every time.
[that's kind of a hard question to answer without acknowledging things he can't acknowledge. he's a liar. practically every word out of his mouth is a lie, so what kind of hypocrite would he be if he revealed truths others were trying to hide.]
...You didn't want to talk about it, and I didn't think you needed to. If I just skipped you, though, it might have drawn more attention.
[this question almost strikes him as funny. just - asking him to lie is nothing. asking him to tell the truth for someone is much harder.]
Saya - even though we're strangers and we didn't decide to be teammates, in the end, that's the situation we're in. We agreed to look out for one another.
I don't mind covering for you. [especially seeing what just happened to mika.] And I'm not the kind of person who feels guilt about deceiving others.
[the fact that she doesn't know he's a HUGE liar is so funny. girl is out here like, wow... reigen is such a nice guy... doing me a solid for no reason...]
So... the database was right. Lying really is one of your skills. [she hums.] I'll come up with a good lie so we don't contradict each other if not saying anything gets too suspicious.
You said you don't feel bad deceiving to others. Were you telling the truth about how your power works?
[well, when he said he didn't feel guilt deceiving others, he was lying. he does feel guilt at the idea of answering this direct question dishonestly, but he also isn't capable of just abandoning this charade.]
I didn't provide all of the details, no. It's not necessary and will only cause trouble to be too specific - it might give someone the tools they need to attempt to counter it.
Well, that's a good enough reason for me. [he shrugs.] I think everybody has something like that, don't they? Some way you prefer others to see you, some side of yourself you don't know how if they'll accept. I know I do.
Even me. [there's a reason he just keeps lying about things even when it's obvious no one is buying it.] Even if I know it probably doesn't matter, I still can't quite get over that feeling sometimes.
So it's no big deal, if there's a side of yourself you aren't ready to share. But if you do ever change your mind, I think it's pretty likely people will be more understanding than you think they'll be.
[she doesn't think that would be the case, but he's being nice and also saying some very depressing things about himself, so she refrains from pointing that out.]
And maybe people won't mind the other side of you, either. Thanks, Reigen.
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week zero, saturday.
Do we really have to keep acting like heroes?
[this feels like a villain origin story...........]
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What do you think it means, to act like a hero?
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Helping people?
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Helping people seems like a pretty good thing to spend your time doing either way.
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Maybe hero's just the word they use to make themselves feel like they're doing the right thing. Just like they called Mika a villain, even though... she didn't mean to kill him.
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You just...have to decide for yourself every time.
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she sighs, staring at her feet for a long, long moment.]
Hey, Reigen. Why did you lie about my ability?
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...You didn't want to talk about it, and I didn't think you needed to. If I just skipped you, though, it might have drawn more attention.
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But now everyone thinks you know what I can do, and that might become a problem for you. If it comes down to it, would you lie for me again?
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Saya - even though we're strangers and we didn't decide to be teammates, in the end, that's the situation we're in. We agreed to look out for one another.
I don't mind covering for you. [especially seeing what just happened to mika.] And I'm not the kind of person who feels guilt about deceiving others.
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So... the database was right. Lying really is one of your skills. [she hums.] I'll come up with a good lie so we don't contradict each other if not saying anything gets too suspicious.
You said you don't feel bad deceiving to others. Were you telling the truth about how your power works?
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I didn't provide all of the details, no. It's not necessary and will only cause trouble to be too specific - it might give someone the tools they need to attempt to counter it.
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[seems like common sense? man, reigen is such a good role model.]
But some of the others probably answered honestly. We should come up with a plan to work around their powers, too. Just in case.
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... I don't want the way everyone looks at me to change.
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Well, that's a good enough reason for me. [he shrugs.] I think everybody has something like that, don't they? Some way you prefer others to see you, some side of yourself you don't know how if they'll accept. I know I do.
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Even me. [there's a reason he just keeps lying about things even when it's obvious no one is buying it.] Even if I know it probably doesn't matter, I still can't quite get over that feeling sometimes.
So it's no big deal, if there's a side of yourself you aren't ready to share. But if you do ever change your mind, I think it's pretty likely people will be more understanding than you think they'll be.
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[she doesn't think that would be the case, but he's being nice and also saying some very depressing things about himself, so she refrains from pointing that out.]
And maybe people won't mind the other side of you, either. Thanks, Reigen.