Yes. Always. [he'll be bluntly honest right now. maybe it'll actually do some good for once.] Mm, Saya, your situation is different in some ways, but in other ones, it's not. There's nothing unusual about being afraid of being judged for who you are inside. Or even the fear that if you were judged, it could be a fair judgment.
I think I've spent a lot of time stubbornly insisting people pretend to believe things about me I know they don't really believe because even being judged based on something we both know is a facade is less frightening than the prospect of someone seeing who I honestly am and disliking me.
But that only gets you by for so long. In the end, I think the only way to ever have a chance to be accepted is to face up to that risk of rejection. And likewise, the pain of rejection is not so terrible that it's worth avoiding it and ending up alone.
[god. the way she really appreciates this and can't even properly express it because she is cursed, but... maybe he can still tell, from the way her expression softens. if only for a moment.]
... Maybe. But it's not usually who I am inside, you know. I probably won't look like this anymore when we go home. [this is her humansona. original oc dns.] Have you... gotten rejected before? For being the real you?
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Yes. Always. [he'll be bluntly honest right now. maybe it'll actually do some good for once.] Mm, Saya, your situation is different in some ways, but in other ones, it's not. There's nothing unusual about being afraid of being judged for who you are inside. Or even the fear that if you were judged, it could be a fair judgment.
I think I've spent a lot of time stubbornly insisting people pretend to believe things about me I know they don't really believe because even being judged based on something we both know is a facade is less frightening than the prospect of someone seeing who I honestly am and disliking me.
But that only gets you by for so long. In the end, I think the only way to ever have a chance to be accepted is to face up to that risk of rejection. And likewise, the pain of rejection is not so terrible that it's worth avoiding it and ending up alone.
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... Maybe. But it's not usually who I am inside, you know. I probably won't look like this anymore when we go home. [this is her humansona. original oc dns.] Have you... gotten rejected before? For being the real you?
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[because he hasn't ever really tried it.]
Sorry if that's a disappointing answer. Is that what you'll do, when this is over? Go home?